The Weight Management

I think the best part about having a long holiday is taht we would have some time for ourselves. I think it's important for the soul and sort. I think the best part about the time for youself is that you can see, think and sense much more clearly.

Much had happened during the time of the year. The worst part is that I have been cheated nad lied by my best friend. He was the one that I loved and trust for many years. The way he ended 19th of August to me was ridiculously stupid. I think it's very sad to me that I am a very good friend and a stupid one until I never even want to hurt his feeling and I silently accept what he needs. I think I am too good for him, but all I want is him. I don't think I can live without knowing him. But people always tell me that things like him, yes I meant thing exist for the worst of your tomorrow. I think That some thing completely up to you. I think it's individual to say that.

but then what can we have in the end of the day is to salvage oneself from the agony of pain and tears. I see the crowd laughing at me but then I never thought that it would be that serious. I never thought that my heart will ache this long. I still think of him and cared for him. I know this post has nothing to do with weight management but then I promised that I would get to that soon. My English is getting a bit rusty ya know. I haven't been using it for a while so yeah you know the irony my English. Actually, there isn't anyone reading the post but me. So it's gonna be fun talking to myself. Wahahahaa....

P/s: This is some shit ranting, don't take it too seriously.

Being Fat and under the weather

You kno0w what, I am so going to hate myself. I have been gaining almost 15 kilos since last year, and that is something I am not proud of. I can't wear my 32 inches jeans; I can't fit into my office wear anymore and I cannot wear the vest that I usually like to wear on days. It's very bad for my image.

I have done this before. Making public announcement that I need to slim down. Making sure that I go to gym at the right time. It's important that I have to slim down before I am obese. The other day I went over to this machine to figure my weight; and when I stepped on it. I was like 92 kilos. I was stoned. I can't believe it. Now, whenever I wear something, I feel like I have to always wear a jacket over it just to hide those extra pounds. I don't know why people say fat is something not to be ashamed of. For me, I think it would be something to be ashamed of because you don't even care for the body that was blessed to you.

God, I need to lose weight. Give me the strength. I am really tired of wearing sweat pants that is the only thing that I can wear!