My Fat Fat Fat Body

This something really humiliating but this what I am going to show to everyone, practically, if no one really reads this blog then it'll be very much appreciated, but how would I put it, I am really a sportsman, once upon a time, like 5 years ago, but suddenly after the period of when I was 18 my body starts to bulge up here and there. It is something that I cannot accept, people tell me to embrace the truth of your body but I really cannot accept that truth up until today, I am really trying to make a change on my body but it is still something I want to change for a while, but I made myself a promise that after this i am going to make myself loose more fat than I can ever loose. This is for real, because some how I made it a promise that on my birthday, on the 11th of December, I am going to be much more slimmer than I am now.

Notice that why I never mentioned the word losing kilos no more. I made up my mind that if I am to slim down, might as well I gain some muscle along the road. i would like to do that as soon as possible. It's 22nd of August 2010, 2.53 pm in Malaysia, I am so going to lose my fat fat body. But certainly I am going to make this a journal for me to express what I think is important. I know that it is what I need to overcome.

My roommate said: "You're fat! Fat, and you must embrace the reality...! you'll never be slim anymore." I am going to show to him that I may be fat right now but I am going to lose these awful bulges in a month or two. I am really someone if I put my heart into it, it will be hard to make me change my mind. I hope that this commitment will last for a long time. As a proof of commitment, I'll upload this picture to show that I mean business.

My First Cystic Acne

I haven't been sleeping well these days, you know with all the burden put onto me and so on, I can't barely find a time to really rest. I need food but it is fasting month so I kind of get use to that statement anyway. But what irritates me the most is having cystic acne, it is so damn painful, how can anyone stand it! I was like what the hell! It's like something that bulged out from you face and shout to the public and say, "Look at me!!!" I am so wondering why on earth would people have these things! It's painful and disgusting!

I am going to be very less motivate these days!

3 Hours in the Net

I am officially hooked to the application "MouseHunt" in facebook, I don't know why but it is really something that can grab you within second and that is rare for me. I went all over to look for mice and try to get my rank upgraded as soon as possible and try to make things easier for me to cope with. It was a fun afternoon for me, because I don't have a life. Then, a few minutes later, I went to sleep.

I was really satisfied by the amount of sleep i've been getting especially during this fasting month and especially when you don't have anything to do rather than making something not worthwhile for sometimes. I went to one of the blogs that I really like and bammed I'm hit by the ammount of things that I found out after like almost 2 months I last visited it. Shocked and amazed.

Today, I broke my promise and I ate rice, i know that is not good but then you know this is my last day of touching rice and I am going to reduce the portion size that I am eating soon after. You know to get back my body is somewhat impossible right now, this is because there are a lot, i mean a lot of temptation for me in the place that I am in and futher more I need to survive with food. But i now know why is it hard for some people to resist the temptation of food, although it made me fat by like a lot of kgs. Shit!

So this is what I am going to do, I am going to lift weight tomorrow, and I am going to fast and break my fast and go to gym after that. It'll be something great for me because then I don't need to feel guilty of eating after I exercised. I need to do some sort of crunch after that too, and I am going to reduce the amount of body fat I have and going to built back my long lost 6 packs.

Great body, here I go!!!

7 Kilos in 1 Month

On the the date of 19th August 2010, I am going to loose 7 kilos for my body so that on the 19th of November, I can have that nice shirt i wanted to buy last month. Man, since I'm back in Kuching, I have been eating, and eating, and eating, non-stop, I have been like on a rise of 7 kilos since and my abs is somewhat like a Belly right now, you know with the ones like you see on drunk fat man. OMG, I felt like my confidence level has been decreasing since. No matter, what on the 19th of September, I must be slim back to my normal size and hopefully with some great figure along side with it. I really need those!

I will post my process everyday to even try to make up for it. No more rice!

Gambate, June!

A day travelling in The Monkee Inn

Ironic, really, why? I just met some of the coolest people in the whole world, well, I met a dude mnamed Daniel King and my first impression, well, the english accent, it just can't get out of my mind. Not that we are not really used to that but really, if I am going to World Universities Debating Championship 2011 with people who speaks like him, hmm... I think I am just gonna be amazed and astound by them... So much for being casual around them.

Well, traveling to International Islamic University Malaysia was really fun, I had one of the best time there with all those debaters and great adjudicators (we really need those) and yeah representing UCTI as their adjudicator, that was fun. Finally, I broke as chair in one of the rounds and continued so after that but really, me being a trainee? That is just so wrong. I think I really need to get my gear up a bit on the issue of direct interaction with the older people in the circuit i.e Surfi, haha, but still i also think that you have to be good to be recognize in the scene.

Last night, in Monkee Inn, I had the best of things in the world, talking to some people from Iran, Germany, UK and one from the US,and listening to them based on their speech and some sort, it was really something. They are more mature than we are (maybe more than me) in terms of viewing things in a perspective, and looking things in a perspective. It was something remarkable; how you see world through what they say. They have the opportunity to travel all around the world and do great stuffs like sight seeing while we need to really look at our budget then, we can travel. Talk about low-cost traveling, they took it to another level. It is awesome at how faith wants you to meet with some people and want you to learn from them, and looking at people and say :" yeah, maybe but..." these things are priceless. Look at how things turn out today, I just woke up and in front of my eye, people just took up their camera and snap-snap, wow, that's some wake up call (apart from having Surfi's thunderous voice from 1 meter away) that was really something. Lol. I am fasting today and yeah am preparing to meet people with great attitude today. And yeah, probably get one too, wink**.

Have a nice day, West!

Iskandar Debate Championship

In this debate tournament, I really screwed up, extremely big time, can you imagine, I was fidgeting on the idea that i was going up against Tasneem Elias, the best rebuttalist in International Islamic University Malaysia, this is the best of what you can get in Malaysia, my first round was against her, National University of Singapore and so on, but it was really intense but at least I took a POI from her and it was something that I never would have expected from the debate. It was something that we UTHM debater was hoping for; a debate with the top team from Malaysia and Singapore, it was something unexpectedly great. It was really embarrassing when you cannot produce any kind of substantives that might be of contribution towards the debate but it was a learning experience.