Christian And Olli

This one of the most watch drama series in Germany (verbotene liebe) partly becasue Thore Scholermann and Jo Weil played a great part in it making it one of the most successful Gay Couple character in real-time drama. This is the best at what they gave us, the German Vs The American Liberal Democracy, this drama is about acceptance and struggling to be in a relationship, not you stereotype, cliche, and (i need to go to the toilet) kinda drama. This is the prime cut, watch it more in youtube. Ich liebe "Verbotene Liebe" und Chrolli. Alles Gute

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Studios 37/38

Butzweiler Str. 255

50829 Köln

I haven't Started yet

You know what, I haven't started my workout, something I can't even promise myself to do it. This is something I have to change I have been trying to workout but can't seem to find some thing to inspire me. Maybe I need to really work on something to get me inspired, maybe this picture? I mean come on, I still need to get a decent shape first, but the damn thing is that the gym is not opening and my dateline is like 3 months from now. I have a dumbbell but I can only afford to be with it a few times a day, I'm pathetic but then I will try hard to actually get it soon, I know maybe I'll just stick to the better thing in life and put workout in my list of to-do thing. It'll be great!

P/s: I'm working out now.

My Fat Fat Fat Body

This something really humiliating but this what I am going to show to everyone, practically, if no one really reads this blog then it'll be very much appreciated, but how would I put it, I am really a sportsman, once upon a time, like 5 years ago, but suddenly after the period of when I was 18 my body starts to bulge up here and there. It is something that I cannot accept, people tell me to embrace the truth of your body but I really cannot accept that truth up until today, I am really trying to make a change on my body but it is still something I want to change for a while, but I made myself a promise that after this i am going to make myself loose more fat than I can ever loose. This is for real, because some how I made it a promise that on my birthday, on the 11th of December, I am going to be much more slimmer than I am now.

Notice that why I never mentioned the word losing kilos no more. I made up my mind that if I am to slim down, might as well I gain some muscle along the road. i would like to do that as soon as possible. It's 22nd of August 2010, 2.53 pm in Malaysia, I am so going to lose my fat fat body. But certainly I am going to make this a journal for me to express what I think is important. I know that it is what I need to overcome.

My roommate said: "You're fat! Fat, and you must embrace the reality...! you'll never be slim anymore." I am going to show to him that I may be fat right now but I am going to lose these awful bulges in a month or two. I am really someone if I put my heart into it, it will be hard to make me change my mind. I hope that this commitment will last for a long time. As a proof of commitment, I'll upload this picture to show that I mean business.

My First Cystic Acne

I haven't been sleeping well these days, you know with all the burden put onto me and so on, I can't barely find a time to really rest. I need food but it is fasting month so I kind of get use to that statement anyway. But what irritates me the most is having cystic acne, it is so damn painful, how can anyone stand it! I was like what the hell! It's like something that bulged out from you face and shout to the public and say, "Look at me!!!" I am so wondering why on earth would people have these things! It's painful and disgusting!

I am going to be very less motivate these days!

3 Hours in the Net

I am officially hooked to the application "MouseHunt" in facebook, I don't know why but it is really something that can grab you within second and that is rare for me. I went all over to look for mice and try to get my rank upgraded as soon as possible and try to make things easier for me to cope with. It was a fun afternoon for me, because I don't have a life. Then, a few minutes later, I went to sleep.

I was really satisfied by the amount of sleep i've been getting especially during this fasting month and especially when you don't have anything to do rather than making something not worthwhile for sometimes. I went to one of the blogs that I really like and bammed I'm hit by the ammount of things that I found out after like almost 2 months I last visited it. Shocked and amazed.

Today, I broke my promise and I ate rice, i know that is not good but then you know this is my last day of touching rice and I am going to reduce the portion size that I am eating soon after. You know to get back my body is somewhat impossible right now, this is because there are a lot, i mean a lot of temptation for me in the place that I am in and futher more I need to survive with food. But i now know why is it hard for some people to resist the temptation of food, although it made me fat by like a lot of kgs. Shit!

So this is what I am going to do, I am going to lift weight tomorrow, and I am going to fast and break my fast and go to gym after that. It'll be something great for me because then I don't need to feel guilty of eating after I exercised. I need to do some sort of crunch after that too, and I am going to reduce the amount of body fat I have and going to built back my long lost 6 packs.

Great body, here I go!!!

7 Kilos in 1 Month

On the the date of 19th August 2010, I am going to loose 7 kilos for my body so that on the 19th of November, I can have that nice shirt i wanted to buy last month. Man, since I'm back in Kuching, I have been eating, and eating, and eating, non-stop, I have been like on a rise of 7 kilos since and my abs is somewhat like a Belly right now, you know with the ones like you see on drunk fat man. OMG, I felt like my confidence level has been decreasing since. No matter, what on the 19th of September, I must be slim back to my normal size and hopefully with some great figure along side with it. I really need those!

I will post my process everyday to even try to make up for it. No more rice!

Gambate, June!

A day travelling in The Monkee Inn

Ironic, really, why? I just met some of the coolest people in the whole world, well, I met a dude mnamed Daniel King and my first impression, well, the english accent, it just can't get out of my mind. Not that we are not really used to that but really, if I am going to World Universities Debating Championship 2011 with people who speaks like him, hmm... I think I am just gonna be amazed and astound by them... So much for being casual around them.

Well, traveling to International Islamic University Malaysia was really fun, I had one of the best time there with all those debaters and great adjudicators (we really need those) and yeah representing UCTI as their adjudicator, that was fun. Finally, I broke as chair in one of the rounds and continued so after that but really, me being a trainee? That is just so wrong. I think I really need to get my gear up a bit on the issue of direct interaction with the older people in the circuit i.e Surfi, haha, but still i also think that you have to be good to be recognize in the scene.

Last night, in Monkee Inn, I had the best of things in the world, talking to some people from Iran, Germany, UK and one from the US,and listening to them based on their speech and some sort, it was really something. They are more mature than we are (maybe more than me) in terms of viewing things in a perspective, and looking things in a perspective. It was something remarkable; how you see world through what they say. They have the opportunity to travel all around the world and do great stuffs like sight seeing while we need to really look at our budget then, we can travel. Talk about low-cost traveling, they took it to another level. It is awesome at how faith wants you to meet with some people and want you to learn from them, and looking at people and say :" yeah, maybe but..." these things are priceless. Look at how things turn out today, I just woke up and in front of my eye, people just took up their camera and snap-snap, wow, that's some wake up call (apart from having Surfi's thunderous voice from 1 meter away) that was really something. Lol. I am fasting today and yeah am preparing to meet people with great attitude today. And yeah, probably get one too, wink**.

Have a nice day, West!

Iskandar Debate Championship

In this debate tournament, I really screwed up, extremely big time, can you imagine, I was fidgeting on the idea that i was going up against Tasneem Elias, the best rebuttalist in International Islamic University Malaysia, this is the best of what you can get in Malaysia, my first round was against her, National University of Singapore and so on, but it was really intense but at least I took a POI from her and it was something that I never would have expected from the debate. It was something that we UTHM debater was hoping for; a debate with the top team from Malaysia and Singapore, it was something unexpectedly great. It was really embarrassing when you cannot produce any kind of substantives that might be of contribution towards the debate but it was a learning experience.

All Around (Wishing Well)

Apart from missing the hotel bed or even my bed oer back at Sarawak, I am so really in need of a wishing well, haiz, I don't really know what to do with my life without any tournament anytime soon, I am so in need of a tournament. i wish that I am on the second speaker role on the government side and I get to kick some ass or get my ass kicked. Haha, but I don't care I must train even though I am on a holiday all around Pennisular Malaysia. I need a break but I need to train!

Yeah, been listening to You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift not because of her but because of her cheezzy lyrics, haha. it's really really nice, "what you're looking for has been here all the time..." Damn, I like the lyric so much! I don't need that but it kinda soothe your mind while thinking of it, haha.

I went to a ver beautiful park last night over at I-City, there you have wonderful light decorated trees, and it was fantastic last night the weather was nice and so on. Haha! Well, i don't know what to write so just live on...

Aftermath (UADC 2010)

Part II

We were suppose to go to Arau Open after UADC 2010, it was suppose to be our first exposure towards Australasians style, this is suppose to be the best thing that can really help the university's english debater to gain a lot of experience but sadly it did not happen due to some trouble done by some people and some down the line imposter and back-stabber. I relly don't know why sometimes things that clearly plan can go wrong just because some idiots that don't want to do their job well and some people want to give priority to the so called remarkable achiever of the university-the jocks. It's not that I have anything against those jocks, I am one too but I would never sacrifice the training of others and the hopes of training day and night and researching to die down just like that. The Malay debaters yeah they tried to get a van to go from south to north of the pennisular but their hope is just in vain; the university gave them the wrong card for fuel rebate, they returned with lost hope, so much for May Day. You know what, we had to travel from LCCT to UTHM and then went back to Kuala Lumpur again just to get a bus ride back to our respective state; for me I fly. But still the sleepless night due to bed bugs and so on really kills me and my teammates, I missed Chaleena Hotel and buffet breakfast! I am missing all those people there!

Well, I went back to where I come from, my teammates too went back to their Home Sweet Home, I really am glad to have them in my team and to be debating with them in the whole tournament. One more thing is that I am in a position of being torture emotionally in Selangor, I don't have any one to go to here except my ridiculous aunt whom is a psycho to start with, but yeah playing with PS2 and reminicing the whole graphic of Kingdom Heart 2, haha. Well still trying to get Orihalcum+ actually, but deng, it's so tough to fight Sephiroth! Going back to Kuching soon, babe, soon!

Yeah, I have been really trying to update my post in my facebook and my twitter and my blog but really there's always a catch; it's either the connection or something extra come rolling along, those kills me you know. Remind me never to live with a bunch of hags. Argh, I can't stand PDA (public display of affection) especially the ones that involve awkward gropping, eww!

We are going to Iskandar Debate Open! OMG will update on that soon!

Aftermath (UADC 2010)

Part I

You know what, it's kinda sad after I returned from United Asian Debating Championship (UADC 2010). I had fun there, all with my teammates (not all the time) and also teams from other contingents that were extremely friendly and among other reason which falls under the category of a lot of personal interests. haha, but really it was really fun to be there to actually excahnge different views about religions and some sort of other ideas. I really loved it when you get to meet smart and matured people who actually debate with their smart-ass head rather with their imbecile attitudes. I ws especially fond of the Lahore Schools of Economics team, they were a bunch of really nice people. Ali Hannan, abdul Rahman, Shahram Niazi, Alishae, Ali Akbar and Tristi( I don't even know whether this is correct or not) but nevertheless they were really great people, they really turned my head around and opinions I previously had upon Pakistan citizens (yea, i know what are you thinking, suicide bombing or jihad kinda thinggy, you die or I die, lol), the truth is they were really very well-mannered people. overall handsome yet astounding group, standing ovation guys, (gosh, did I sound gay for the past few lines??)

I missed the smiles and laughters we all shared during the talk in front of 7 11, and all those stupid and funny critiques I made towards Alishae, she's a very beautiful debater, that I can assure you. Shahram the really great guy with the spectacles and pink polo, Ali Hannan, the very charming eye-brow guy and yeah he's a great person to talk to too. Abdul Rahman the very religious man, Ali Akbar the photo-guy and yeah the beard-man! Tristi-the very play-around kinda guy, 2-0 man, for scoring, me? I'm just a tag-along guy with nothing more than just a mere child attitude and a side-line photographer. I will try to post photos of us. 7 days is just too short to know all of their interest and personal experiences. and yeah, Kim Apple too, from the Phillipines

I would like to apologize to Siti Nur Laily and NoorHazlina for not being there all the time with them; thanks for all the help financially and yeah team-spiritly, what would I be without you guys. and thank you for being the conscience of me during those few days at Bangkok, love you guys!!!!!!!!

Haha, guess they had their spare fun without the immature guy in the team. I got to be singing in that event and had fun being there. You had no idea what it takes to sing I'm Yours in front of a lot of people. I meant really a lot and them cheering for you at the same time. Hannan, I want that memorable video. Hehe.

The Korean Soju party was actually really fun. I don't get to drink all of the Soju because I want to be sober and want to be sane enough to communicate with the other teams! But the dance night was really fun, I danced!

I'm on a job hunt actually and yeah, still haven't recieved any reply for any of it. I am so doomed. Yeah, someone just told me that : "... debate cannot earn you any money and you are not stepping in the real world, I know debate is very important to you but you have to really stay in the real world to actually to be in reality. Debate is useless, it bring you nowhere( screaming!), what have you been doing the whole day, studying debate all the while, put it aside, you need to work and don't debate with me..." I was so stunned at what people think of debate as a career, they don't know that debate is what makes all the human right stand that their living falls upon those who debated for their right to be in this world, and they say it's something not important, how can they be so insensible. It's a good thing I did not Kataguruma her, I just said "yeah, yeah, okay, fine, umm, I see, Thank you for your honest opinion" And I just walked off. don't get me wrong, she's not even my close family or something, my family would understand that I am really serious when I am doing something, and they really supported me since then.

I just successfully outcast the whole stalker/secret admirer of my facebook account. Haiz, it's really weird how that person can get into it and the first place. I am really careless. But I had all my friends back, cheers to me.

We are going for iskandar debate open. Haha, finally something nice, Mahidol is coming so I am really happy with that, I love the monk guy! Breathe now...

I think I am going back to my hometown soon, I really love that though. Haha, I am really looking forward to that. Long Term Relationship has already taken it's toll on me. Haiz. But i really am hoping to be there in a week!

dear bloggers, I don't want to put all the bad stuffs that befalls onto me, so I thin I will skip all the stupid yet irrelevant details. Just want you to see the bright side of me, haha. The adventure lives on, part 1 ends!

Malaysian Debaters

Malaysian debaters are among the best debater in the world and most probably the best in Asia. We have an array of people who are very much as caliber as anyone in the west. We know that sometimes we Malaysian might be look down on, but then there are alot of times we are as much as we can be. Khalida, Meor, Daniel, Ips, Alex, Noel, Suffian, Teh Tian Yen, Tasniem and many more are among Malaysia's Best Debaters. These people are dedicated, are talented and most of all, fill with knowledge. Fast thinkers and highly commited people are very encouraged to enter debate society. We need people like them, we need to be as great as we can be to uphold the people of Asia, and Malaysia because, Malaysia, Truly Asia....

Cheers! Hear hear!

It's there...

Sometimes you do not have to be really good at something to win at it, you can be as if you are not not good at it and still be good at it. You see my point?

I know I am a weird guy who has no life what so ever but the reality check is that I am really just a normal guy who is really passionate at what I am currently doing. Wahaha. Sometime the statement really confuses me sometime.

Well, I am just like that.